Remembering...

I've decided to do dust off this blog and try again.  But first, I suppose I should go back to where it began.

2005...

That was when I started this, and it appears (after reading those whole 2 posts!) I was looking for a place to sort of "find myself".  It took me awhile, but strangely, I didn't need this blog to do that.  La mariposa morada spread her wings.  I managed to create a life that would allow me the freedom to be.  Oh, and I've learned that I can proudly be an ass if I want... guilt free.  Not that I would maliciously hurt someone.  By being an ass, I don't mean being mean.  Back in 2005, I felt like I was being an ass if I wasn't meeting the expectations of others.  I felt that so strongly that I forgot about my own expectations for myself.  I walked carefully... I did what was expected.  I pushed away important aspects of myself in an attempt to make others happy... in an attempt to "keep the peace".  Now, it's much different.  My friends would all say I am often uncensored and rather blunt about my life, my strengths, my weaknesses.  And to that, I would say:  It's about damn time! 


So, let's see if I can shift this blog a bit.  No longer do I see myself as a butterfly needing to spread her wings and fly.  In fact, it's even difficult for me to remember when I was so quiet... when I was so sad.

I'm flying now...

It's about damn time!  ;)